What a day

i don't know how to describe what i feel. my day was so bad. i wasn't even my normal self. i started talking nonsense trying to keep her off my mind. but i just couldn't. wat is the problem.
i mean u know that i really wanted u to be there. u know i wanto see u. u still have to leave. it doesn't matter if u took a cab back halfway. u were already gone. go. fuck off with ur new friends. just go away.


i just wanto forget all these.. so yea. i played soccer yesterday. we won 4-2. was a real good match against a strong side. i think joining this Maykha team will really profit me. everyone's just so good. and rag. yea. we really need to brush up. not tat we are doing tat badly but we can just get so much better. and my dad's back in sg! must go see wat he bought me.

okok. i'm off. shower and go for supper! then mustapha. is tat how i spell it. don't know dont' care. ok. ciao.

i dont' understand this. i really dont'. going out wif my friends to zouk is wrong?? just cuz i dotn' bring her along. i dotn' get it. i'm tired of all this. =(((

i'm afraid of losing her. i'll miss her a lot if i ever go away. i dont' want her to feel lonely. damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn. =((((((((((((

suppose to play soccer! but then cock up. dont' know why there were three teams using the same field and one opponent taking on two teams. so i wasted my whole morning and my beloved sleep to go there and play 15 mins of soccer. bloody hell. then Kelven lost his wallet. hopefully the thief feel guilty and at least send back the cards to him.

and of course she woke me up in the morning. tot she had to go religious class or sth but the whole family fell asleeP!!!!!! haha. end up she just woke up just now only. still say canoot go out today! smack ur face later! grrrr.

errmmm. haven't been blogging for a while. yea. shall update. i went for the nus SDE camp.
it was fun. four days 3 night camp. slept at yusoff hall. ok i dotn'; know how to spell.
but i think most of them had like 3 hrs of sleep overall. haha. cuz of the world cup! but
i had a lot cuz i dozed off till the morning! woke up with 50+ missed callsss. hahahaha.
met some great ppl. JCW my gay mate. Zhi Ming, Nish and Hong Jie my ogls. Joyce my bro.
Val the tai tai. mich yen the easteners. a lot la. still left about 5 or 6 more. and we watched finals
together at K box. ohhhh. xiao qian voice power!

went to MOS last night. wif JCW Val and Zhi Ming. was quite fun. haha. Sneaked my fai there also. she got checked so long! the person ask her smile. then talk among themselves. ' it's her meh? it's her meh?' hahaha. and guess wat!!!! saw bapoks again. only this time they're much prettier. stare until fai irritated. haha. yaa. so morrow going school again. latersss.